I have planned for a while to post about why I blog. People seem to think that I blog because I think I have something for others. Oh no. I blog for me. Because blogging is natural for me. Asking why I blog is like asking why I talk to coworkers. Um…
Yes, whenever I get negative comments that imply that I hurt someone I consider shutting this blog down and going someplace else where “no one knows me.” But I don’t do that in real life. And I can’t help hurting people.
Instance: the Wednesday before Thanksgiving. One of my normally chatty coworkers who loves to talk about meat and asks me questions about vegetarianism (along with asking me if I am Amish or a ballerina!) asks me what I am doing for Thanksgiving. I tell him and then ask if he is excited about some great food. Wrong question. It turns out that his wife is in the hospital, and I can tell that he is hiding hurt since I’ve rubbed turkey grease (or lack thereof) in his wound over spending his days off in the hospital caring for his wife. Ouch.
But the only way for me to avoid such things is to never say anything. And then I will hurt those who really needed a happy coworker to chat with.
So I hurt people. And I move on (after salving my feelings of guilt and self-loathing, of course!).
I was going to post a long post about this sort of thing and try to really explain myself. I did not think that I could make all others understand, but at least I would have something to read myself the next time I felt like shutting down my blog.
But then I looked at Josh’s most visited page (we both use Chrome and when you open up a new window or tab it shows you screenshots of the top sites you visit). And I determined that I want to get this blog on his top list. The Catholic one is already there, but apparently my regular blog isn’t that interesting?!
Well if that isn’t a challenge, I don’t know what is! I must somehow compete with top tech sites for a bit of my husband’s attention. And, I’ll not kid myself, I always love more attention from him.
So instead of posting about why I blog with lots of itsallaboutmetalkingtomyself explanations, I am posting to explain that I blog to get web attention from my husband. So if you think things are crazy around here, just know that you’re not the one I’m blogging for. I am determined to get on his top list by the end of the year. Which means that I need to start ignoring challenging comments and fears over others reactions and just post. Crazy things.
Oh, and if you feel like commenting (not on this post in particular) please do so. He is the type to click through to read comments which means more views of my blog which means Chrome knows that he thinks I am the BEST!
If you were to be honest about why you blog, what would you say? Don’t worry, I won’t tell your readers. We can keep it between you and me and whomever reads this blog (which is apparently not usually Josh).
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